Gianina Horton's Blog (6)

I like blogging. It is different from keeping a journal or diary which I have tempted to start over the years, but I never kept them up. However, at the same time it is very much the same. Maybe blogging appeals to me because I have people who are willing to read and understand my words. Yeah.... that sounds right. Usually when I feel like writing, I want to believe someone out there will be reading what I have to say and be like"nope. This gal sure is crazy". I don't know. Something like that.… Continue

Growing up, my mom/grandma always told me not to use the word "Can't". They would say, "There is no such thing as can't". But, I can't. The "facts" that I have made into reality can not be replaced. First step. OK. The time, tonight, I could have did what we talked about that one night long ago.... No. I was the same. Did the same thing. I can not, do it. "Can't" is not an excuse but a reason. A messed up reason, but a reason all the same. I am sorry. Hell, I think I am apologizing mo… Continue

Gia: Tears are salty. Nina: Especially when there are many. Gia: Elaborate? Nina: Three words: Fast for Darfur Gia: Good or bad? Nina: Bad. Gia: About Darfur, Sudan? Nina: No. About lack of being heard by those participating in the fast. Gia: Dang. Nina: I know. Gia: Last year doing the fast? Nina: yup Gia: And it sucked? Nina: Yup Gia: Sorry Nina: No worries. What's done is done. Time to move on. The end Continue

"Ok. Give me a sec Glovinsky. Let me look over it real fast." "You seem a bit nervous about all of this." My thought fo a milasec: Which choice are you going to make? Do I, laugh and tell her no, its just you want to make sure everything is perfect OR admit that I AM nervous? Choice: "Yeah, I am." I move from my seat, let my couselor take a look. "Now hit the submit button." "Why? Your at the computer." "It is your life." "OK. OK," my thought for another milasec: Wow. I am about to send… Continue

I think I am ready to finally declare safe space. I have never agreed to it. I am sure you will remember; I was the person sitting on the floor in our hostel in Poland when everyone else shook each others hands and looked into each others eyes agreeing to the safe space concept. When those who tried to hug me, I said no. I do not regret my desision at the time but I do realize it gave me the opportunity to still be distant to others. I think, I did share some of me with the group but never enoug… Continue

Head girl? or no head girl? Should I run? or not run? And I am already extremly busy? or can I handle it? Should I become a member of other clubs? or give those up to be head girl? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (Like in Dem. Valley when trying to run and screaming! hahaha) HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D Continue