Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay, there's always one reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day .I need some distraction, beautiful release.. memory seeps from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe. I don´t wanna be strong today
I am lost in this world , so tired to be bold.
So tired to be human. I need some release something what will make me warm because these days are very cold.
Dark and cold.The worst c… Continue
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Sitting alone in my room and listening to Bl song.. I can not think of my memories. The wake up kids and funny the it is songs remind me of the big change in my life. Playing the fool is cool, but I think I just put my mask on... a mask of a joker.... I try to pretend my sadness, loneliness, emptiness. sometimes i wish not to reclaim the basic resources....I have never thought that It will be so difficult.... it is difficult especially cause my BL family is far from me.... I count the days that… Continue
Hi bold pals ,
I have big adventure in front of me .
I will be representing my country in World Thaiboxing Championships in Bangkok,Thailand !
It starts 27.11. , but I am flying to Thailand in six days from now - on Saturday 14.11. and I will be living and training in one camp in Ubon - it´s sleepy metropole of the poorest east part of Thailand .Trainings there are gonna take about 5-6 hours each day , so I hope it will help and prepare me in the best possible way .Flying tickets and taxes are p… Continue
Gia: Tears are salty.
Nina: Especially when there are many.
Gia: Elaborate?
Nina: Three words: Fast for Darfur
Gia: Good or bad?
Nina: Bad.
Gia: About Darfur, Sudan?
Nina: No. About lack of being heard by those participating in the fast.
Gia: Dang.
Nina: I know.
Gia: Last year doing the fast?
Nina: yup
Gia: And it sucked?
Nina: Yup
Gia: Sorry
Nina: No worries. What's done is done. Time to move on.
The end Continue
Stanislavski Method: The system is the result of Stanislavski's many years of efforts to determine how a human being can control in performance the most intangible and uncontrollable aspects of human behavior, such as emotions and artistic inspiration...The system is based around an actor being "in the moment" but always staying one step away from complete belief.
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stanislavski_Method)
The Stanislavski M… Continue
HEY YA'LL SO FIRST OF ALL MISS Y'ALL VERY MUCH!!!AND I THINK I NEED TO SEE YOU GUYS SOON!!!TO SPILL OUT ALL THE STRESS ETC..
BUT FIRST I HAVE MY 4000 WORD ESSAY DUE FRIDAY oCTOBER 30TH, AND I WROTE ABOUT THE ROMA IN HUNGARY!!...BUT IN ONE OF MY PARAGRAPHS I AM DISCUSSING ABOUT THE INTERVIEWS THAT WE HAD IN THE EMABSSY IN HUNGARY!!!..I WAS WONDERING DOES ANYONE HAVE THE INFORMATION OF THE GUYS THAT WE INTERVIEWED?? OR DID ANYONE TAKE NOTES??..BECAUSE I DID I JUST HAVE MISPLACED THEM TEMPORARLY..… Continue
"Ok. Give me a sec Glovinsky. Let me look over it real fast."
"You seem a bit nervous about all of this."
My thought fo a milasec: Which choice are you going to make? Do I, laugh and tell her no, its just you want to make sure everything is perfect OR admit that I AM nervous?
Choice: "Yeah, I am."
I move from my seat, let my couselor take a look.
"Now hit the submit button."
"Why? Your at the computer."
"It is your life."
"OK. OK," my thought for another milasec: Wow. I am about to send… Continue
I cried the other day and I hated it and for hating the way I felt I hated myself I'm torn. I am all over the place contorted and frayed. I feel like apart of me is disappering but I'm scared because I don't know which part it is, I'm falling. I feel like I've said so many things but someones cut out my tongue so no one heard it anyway. There is a conscience decsion I must make, but there are unconscience barries I cannot break. I dream of simplicity but that would never be complcit to who I am.… Continue
James Bond gets out from his car in front of the Denver Public Library and says:
-Hello my name is Bond......James Bond.
And my answer is:
-Hello my name is Leader.....Boldleader
hahahaha...Im sorry gusy its not funny but I found it out when we were on the mentioned place. Not funny but cute:-)
Enjoy it:-)
Have a good day!!! Continue
I haven't been writing a hole bunch...but neither have any of you, so nevermind
So I want to be apart of the project but I feel like I'm being bombarded by all kinds of other jobs (except for the ones that pay..thats another story though) Its like I'm the perfect scapegoat for super stressed out adults. why can't I just say no? NONONONNONONONONONONONONONONONO...tis a nice ring
but anyway
I'm teaching a DIY revolution class next quarter for my senior project. This should be good. Now people wi… Continue
I realized tonight that I've been hurting a lot lately. I've been avoiding the fact that I do, but that doesn't mean it isn't true. Isn't always in the back of my mind. I hate that it is. More than anything. I hate that I let myself to succumb to these negative thoughts, that I'm letting little things run the way I think about myself. But I have to admit to it. I have to be able to say that I do let those thoughts consume me.
I've always struggled with being a perfectionist, feeling like I can… Continue
OH, finally i figured out what will be my project....it will be about voluteering... helping out the teatchers...teaching children english... so I will need your help sometimes... Continue
The biggest struggle I have is not with teachers, family, friends, school or the whole world for that matter, my biggest struggle is with myself. I constantly judge myself, rating all my actions and measuring how they were done. After a conversation, when I am done with homework, how my attitude was during the day, if I am living bold, if I used my voice I try to see if I am living life up to my own standards. I feel like I get away from just living life and go to living life in a certain way.… Continue
so....TORI'S SLEEPOVER WAS AMAZING!...I'm not gonna go in to detail of what exactly we did....but I was so excited to be going in the first place...with how crappy September was for me, I desperately needed to be around you guys....and the fact that Tori decided to open her house up to us, was so sweet, because she just wanted the house to feel homey and and have her friends there....but anyways....I want to thank Gianinia, Gianina's brother, Cody, Anita, Akeem, and of course Tori....for b… Continue
The feeling of everything crashing around you feels strange from afar. Stepping out of my mortal body for a second to see me is as if I'm seeing someone else. You'd think I'd have a panicking feeling but I feel utterly and competely at peace. I witness my own demise but its ok. I'm being reborn into someone else. Continue
Hi Guys!
I found something in the internet!
You should check it! Cute photos about Hungarian participants:-)
http://images.google.hu/imgres?imgurl=http://www.huembwas.org/GB/CMLE/Group%2520outside.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.huembwas.org/GB/CMLE/RomaStudentGroup.htm&usg=__VU0f6u7JIuAfHHT21S4TKzYjII4=&h=3168&w=4752&sz=6597&hl=hu&start=3&sig2=TktUaX3uDvnW_h1Hr780lA&um=1&tbnid=hXGSNgS8dYZnfM:&tbnh=100&tbnw=150&prev=/images%3Fq%3DB%25C3%25A9la%2BGede… Continue
I am scared. I am uncertain. Sadness covered, protected with laughter. Sadness is demonstrated by an anger.
I am confusion. I want to be known. I want to be loved and I want to love. I want to find my way.
I know I am smart, intelligent, very bright but I dont't want to say it because I'm scared.
I don't think about me I am beautiful but I know I've got an interesting face as an ethnic face( I can look like as an Indian, Native American, Japanise Cartoon, Spanish Girl, so on)
I know I can be evi… Continue
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