Nikolas Rybar's Page

Do you guys know how happy you are? I realized it just today cause as many of you probably know that I am an altarboy. Today I was on a funeral of a young father aged 31. I know his son from elementary school. His fother died and I was a in the cemetery looking at him and trying to feel his pain and I have to say that some moments I was so close to cry I was doing my best not to cry. But than It came. The boy who I dont know so good even he is not my close friend just started to cry and me too.… Continue

Sitting alone in my room and listening to Bl song.. I can not think of my memories. The wake up kids and funny the it is songs remind me of the big change in my life. Playing the fool is cool, but I think I just put my mask on... a mask of a joker.... I try to pretend my sadness, loneliness, emptiness. sometimes i wish not to reclaim the basic resources....I have never thought that It will be so difficult.... it is difficult especially cause my BL family is far from me.... I count the days that… Continue

OH, finally i figured out what will be my project....it will be about voluteering... helping out the teatchers...teaching children english... so I will need your help sometimes...

I am like a normal guy like you
I am black and white, water and fire, failure and success at the same time
I am a huge believer in God and the power of my decisions
I am a lover of my world and glad for what I have
I am a stranger for myself cause the decisions are not so easy
I am who I am thanks to my buddies
I am the one who can change the world around me
I am the fight a peace, do not demage me please
I am the fighter who is hit by life
I am a huge mass of love, fun, behaviour, patience, ang… Continue

Well. I am back home. Sure. I should be happy, but I am not. I really miss the US. In my inside I feel that I am not home. I feel that my home is on the other side of the ocean. I miss you guys... Katie, Cody, Alex, Slovakian, Hungarian, Czech guys, my coaches, host family, your country, I really hope to meet you again and soon. The biggest problem is that I can not empty my cup and that I can not share my experiences...... cause there is no people who I can tell what I learnt, the crazy things… Continue